As Your Story Unfolds

When you left him for the last time,
What was going through your mind?
Did you think you'd go back or did you just leave?
I was the one who was crying at his feet,

When you looked into his heart, what did you see?
Why do you see a little bit of him in everyone but me?
So special I must've been cursed with belief,
So critical, I was beyond your relief,

And to take it all back now would
Take away all that I've ever misunderstood.
And to let it all go right now could
make all this information I have no good.
And no one would want any of this...

When you knew he could never love you,
Did you tell me you already knew?
His excuse for failure was God's will,
But what man of a divine position turns so ill?

How many times did I tell you I wouldn't be like you?
Why did I ever think that all of those words would come true?
Selfishly foolish and only getting ever so slightly older.
Each year I grow up, I get just a little bit less colder.

And to take it all back now would
Take away all that I've ever misunderstood.
And to let it all go right now could
make all this information I have no good.
And no one would want any of this...

Oh, and to think he might hear you.
It's a loop of forgiveness and truth.
Oh, and to think he might hear me.
It's a loop of hard ground and sea...

I took steps backwards,
In hopes of going forwards,
I'm selfishly foolish.

And to take it all back now would
Take away all that I've ever misunderstood.
And to let it all go right now could
make all this information I have no good.
And no one would want any of this...